A Backseat in Duronto Express | Lakshya Singh

The following poem by Lakshya Singh from Nalagarh, Himachal Pradesh was selected as a commendable mention in Wingword Poetry Prize 2020

It doesn’t matter if the engine,

sneakily crawls,

or bolts like that cold-sandwiched air

blowing past,

those weary faces,

dispersed on dull green, metallic benches

when you are lying still,

a dormant volcano,

lips shunned , eyes-shut

away from the sight of that glass window,

on that upper berth 64-B1,

which smells,

rather fumes of someone familiar,

of white-linen soaked in fingertips,

vaporizing beneath that

strangely cold, grey blanket

coiled like the hair of that lady

drifting in her late sixties,

supping her tea in a plastic cup,

glancing at the glass window

which stares back at her like

a cracked mirror.

 

With her back hunched as

a crumpled sheet of paper,

her name, age and a thousand other letters

carved on her round face,

the ticket collector stares

at the blurriness of her eyes:

a perfect identity card,

passes a faint, nearly invisible smile

and then moves away,

near a couple with an

over-zealous toddler sucking

the nipple of his milk bottle,

and babbling occasional “Amma, Appu”,

which fades away in the bustle of the tires,

his mother, dressed in her khaki-kurta

probably watching dunes fall back

into little grains of sand on her cheeks,

his dad, pretending to read a book,

while rubbing his son`s back.

 

Upon his arrival,

they sit befuddled

as an unhinged door,

she vigorously searches her handbag,

he lays hands on his narrow pockets,

nothing, mere lumps of rock

tanked like an empty silo ,

outside their window,

inside their throats.

They unzip their luggage ,

bags shut open like their mute mouths,

clothes heaped over -another

like buried, unspoken words

“It will be fine,

we`ll be fine,

you`ll be just be a video-call,

just a few semesters,

probably then a 9-5 job away.”

 

They check over his little pockets,

the little fingers, those curly hairs,

the bottled milk, nothing.

mere ghost spaces

and bones intertwined into one.

The TTE mumbles and moves away

with a slight hand gesture,

rather a sympathetic nod

read as” Its okay, I understand, anyways.”

 

It doesn’t matter if the engine

whistles or

silently drags itself with

a thousand bodies floating

through time and space,

when those fluorescent lights are already shut,

the pastel blue curtains drawn and

that bottled milk spilt on the floor.