My Mother | Anushka Das

The following poem by Anushka Das from New Delhi was selected as a commendable mention in Wingword Poetry Prize 2020

my mother is decreasing

           

she tip toes barefoot about

the house to not make a

murmur of her existence

 

my mother is contracting

 

she nibbles at our leftovers

until the morsels choke the

base of her throat

 

my mother is dwindling

 

she has a shadow which

attempts to detach itself

and a reflection which

strives to crack open the mirror

 

my mother is shriveling

 

she is a ghost wearing

cheap moisturizer laden

skin over appendages

that rattle when she moves

 

my mother is condensing

 

she cries but within time slots

to not allow the full throttle of

her sorrow to manifest

 

my mother is recoiling

 

she stands at the edge of

family photos such that one

of her limbs is always cut out

 

my mother is shrinking

 

she has an arched back that

curls more inwards as

she makes up space for us

 

my mother is a frail framework

of brittle bones and tattered tissues

 

she has nourished this house

with enough love to call it a home

but every corner bears shackles

the size of her withering wrists

 

her larynx is a morgue

with unsaid words

rotting like unidentified cadavers

 

my mother is

one-fourth

the woman she

could be

three-fourths

the woman she

had to be

 

so I excavated

years of generational

expectations

from in-between

her vertebrae

and asked her to

straighten her spine

 

I told her that

I will always look

up to her