A Trembling Heart Finding Home.- Simran Narang

The night's silence, the familiar footfall,

Breeze caressing the skin,the ghostly tenderness,

Curls dance to the wind’s melody,

A rebellious mind embracing it’s feelings.

Letting go feels like falling off the cliff,

But how will I rise if I never fall?

I smile and smile,

Wishing that every flower

Needs to bloom,but like the thorns,

It stung every time,

Making me wonder,

Does loving others supposed to hurt this much?

So lost in the chores,

The chorus fades to a hum,

Everything a mundane task.

With gain and loss,

I lose the joy of it all.

For the world’s love

I lose myself.

With the bittersweet world,

From nothing we came,

Back to nothing we soar.

As black turns to grey,

The shine fades away.

The body meets the dust we once trod upon,

The soul meets the infinite blue hues, than,

Why do we nurture the body more than the soul?

As the sun sets,

The darkness I grew up with,

Becomes my only solace.

Without anyone's reflection,

I find freedom.

Drifting like the mist,

Without form or face.

Moon,my place,

Where dreams take flight.

Perhaps that's why we dream at night,

No voices to distract,

No sights to judge,

With no chains to bind me,

Desires and fear spark,

The essence of what touches the soul.

With trembling legs,

The steps I take to rise,

With no staircase in sight.

Pats on the back,

From my reflection in sight.

I smile at the younger me,

"We will get there, dear."

The storm ensues,

The cold bites me,

"Why are you crying?"

Apricity heals me,

In the name of Lily.

A stranger,with tiny feet,

and a little heart to give,

Despite cancer’s grip,

her smile defied.

At dawn, she admires the bird’s morning song,

Even though they may not make it to dusk.

At night,she gazes at the stars,

How they make a terrifying dark eternity mesmerizing.

Mind spellbound,

by the world’s dictates.

Chasing butterflies,

everywhere I roamed ,

except within, I see.

How many times I forgot to be still,

Where there was no standstill,

To savor the taste of coffee,

To feel the warmth of a caress.

To feel the thud of my heart racing,

With stranger's kind embrace.

Little by little,

The heart looks for love within,

The mind in melody with the home, I built.

A home, you may ask?

A home where no one can enter,

With plaster of smiles, to shatter,

For no longer am I starving for love,

For love is within me,

To shield me away from all the storms of the world.