DISQUIET LAKE - SHRUTI VERMA SINGH

You and me

Walking lakeside

No holding hands

Just comforting

In complete silence

Nothing left to be said

Nothing more

Nothing new

As we walk

No compulsion

No desire

No arousal

Of the body

Or heart

Or mind

Just me

Just you

When you let me be me

And I let you be you

Where he lets me be me

Where I let him be him

And in between

A vacant space

Of nothingness

Of disquiet

Aversion

Diversion

A torrid escape

Of heaving hearts

Of quiet

Of age

Of Ageing

Of Wrinkles

Of friendship

And giving

And finding yourself

A rediscovering

Of meaninglessness

Of Wordlessness

The lake knows

It knows these things

It’s seen more tears

Than the water it holds

Silent tears

Unrequited tears

Tears that laugh

Tears of the lonely

Deep unconfessed tears

Discomforting tears

Of anger

Of passing time

And disquiet hearts

Of unspoken pain

Of open wounds

Tears are invisible blood

Like sweat

Salty cries

But these moments

Are heavy noiseless cries

Of an unstill soul

Restless body and mind

And yet that weight

Close to the heart

Like an anchor thrown into the open sea

Moving quietly

Gently

Below the water

Landing between

The deep and blue

An open wound

Of uncried tears

Of unsaid words

Of unopened emotions

Of unacknowledged pain

Of unsound stillness

Of unknown sadness

Be still my soul

Dwell on it

Swell with it

Heave with it

The pain

And unsaid truths

That only you must know

And the lake

Of fears

Of grief

Of loss

Of time

Of fortitude

It knows it all

As it whispers

To the wind

As it caresses your hair

Saying it will be fine

One day

Perhaps not today

To live in hope

To change the fear

That nothing ever will make sense

Anymore

Yet it will

Someday

Just not today

Today I will

Dwell on it

Sit with it

That heaviness that weighs me down

With the lake

As witness

For it’s all knowing

It always knows

You can lie to yourself

But not the lake

It’s cold

It sees

It’s all knowing

Never forget

That feeling

Of knowing

That it knows.