“Is there any improvement “ she asked ?
No, “We are playing with the same eleven,” I barked.
“Try , staying in the moment and not worrying too much “, she said.
I told , “Thats exactly what I tell myself when I am in bed” .
“Are you taking your pills regularly “she asked ?
She said, “I’ll have to increase the medication if this lasts”.
I keep wondering, “Why Am I at this place just to see her talking like this and staring at my face “ ?
I asked, “Is there a possible solution or cure for my case “ ?
She said, “The only solution is to burn up those pictures and get over that phase”.
I asked, “Will this be over if I erase her memory from my brain” ?
Or
“Is this an everlasting pain “ ?
She said “Your wife is dead and it’s been six years”.
I said , “Not a day has passed without remorse or tears” .
She said , “Look its over you’ll have to live in the present ! “
I said “Well, if thats the case I’d rather watch myself descend “.
“You can’t do this to yourself you have a life to live “ she said.
I told her “Maam , you don’t get it , Can we talk about anything else instead ? “
“So what are you planning to do now ?” she asked.
“Well , I plan to live with her in my head “ i said.
“You’ll be a maniac in a few weeks” she said.
I told her,
“ I’ve already become one ,
I see her ghost lying with me on my bed “.