Awakened by a gentle breeze
A day of brilliant sun unfolds the sky
Misty sunrays dance through the windows
Joyous plants find their chance
A tell tale morning
A cup to kick start the day
Small conversations and waving hellos
Morning brewed strong
But the quarrel started
Small talks became small hurdles
Sweet smiles poured warm taunts along
A bit of who you are crushing who I am
It started hitting, word by word
I started drifting into the long lost battle
Slowly cursing me for what I am
Burning a bit inside, resisting a bit outside
The contours of my body
A rosette for your conversations
A lure for your friday eves delight
Like a burning candle
I stood melting away in your burning conversation and scornful laughter
Yet smiling yet crying
Your perception is what you wish to sow
I am not confined by your decree
Negligence is bliss
Correction is arrogance
Words became swords
Gentle pricks started scaring
The remedy lay within
Without a purpose to hold
A conversation to breathe
Lost I remained anxiety's captive in part
Yet they battled with the sharpest words
Through the scars again, till it tore open
Deeper and deeper
I called them friends, family
What to address
what to leave unsaid
Problems seem cheap and small
Its true, when they are not yours to endure and pursue
Journeyed for endless miles,
Repetitive steps, questioning in silent trials,
Was it in my genes or the soul's plea?
Am I fat and unloved, or slender and weak?
The power of speech and mistfit I am
Amplified your image but obscured me,
In your shadow, I made you shine and win,
Yet, at my cost, you're the void within.
Hidden in your words, there lies the dread,
A mask concealing the nothingness unsaid.