I was dancing on the terrace on the beats of oud ,
Feeling high, smiling wide then, tears come out of blue.
First I thought It was crazy but truth blown my mind,
You are crying through my eyes
And I'm smiling by your eyes.
I can feel your pain ,
I hope you can feel mine.
Time and distance is illusion ,
You are already mine .
I thought to tell this happy feeling to someone else ,
They said it's your bubble world, here's your reality check .
We wish you'll find someone just like your dreams,
but don't you think so it is too childish .
Their words tramped all over my bubble world ,
I see shattering it's pieces all over the floor.
So I finally decided to close my door ,
Cuse I was too much magical for this logical world.
I was crying by holding peaces of my bubble world ,
Thought I could never ever ever be recovered .
But thanks to god that he made me optimistic,
I keep going with my faith in his magic tricks .
The day came when he finally came ,
He hold my hand took me on the path to the heaven .
There I foremost meet his lovely messengers,
They were none another than my fav. Taro readers .
They've ve exploded my brain with synchronization,
They re ignite the flame of magic into my heart .
I walk ahed and found Archangel Gabriel there,
He came closer and gave me 5 boxes , I stare .
I opened it and found it's MUSIC ,
which took me to another level of spirituality .
These two gifts gave words to my revire ,
I was soo happy because I get to know alot about me.
One was speaking and other singing out my soul,
For the first time in forever I felt I am understood by someone .
I was literally flying all over the moon ,
Then God opend the gate of my childhood wounds .
I was crying out my heart , feeling pain in my nevers ,
Feeling soo skeptical about my caliber .
God said this holding me tight into his arms ,
I'm with you my child no matter how hard the path .
So I finally decided to step into the gate ,
Coz I know my God is there no matter how much it pains.
One by one all the layers came to the my surface ,
And I found my self in the state of emotional breakage .
As I've already shut the doors for logical beings,
so the one who left to talk is Only me .
So I've started talking and writing all my pain ,
Confronting each emotions coming to the surface .
When I was feeling that I can't do it more alone ,
I put my hand on heart and prayed to dear God .
I started to walk alone in the dry desert , having faith that I will surely get that one drop of water .
On my next step I found a brilliant team,
They were influencer and some spritual being.
They took me to the ocean of Sprituality ,
They show reflection of devine and society .
What it looks ,how it is, what is it's reality ,
They taught me trick, how Can I handle it.
They have introduced me to my tool kit ,
Which was always there present inside of me .
It is none another than my perspective ,
Now I see how my reality is relfected .
When I understand the power of my thoughts ,
I found Life was always my friend in disguise of monster .
Life came closer and told this to me ,
That I was always working for your destiny.
Whenever I've injected pain inside of you,
It have triggered burried emotions into you.
So you can literally understand this simple thing ,
That darling you need to work you can't sit on it .
So you can evolve and meet your higher self ,
And She will show you your signed soul contract .
ALL your definition of Success that society have told you,
The name , the fame, and the cash in your bank account .
that you always thought is your passion and purpose,
it will started to seem nothing infront of your soul contract .
And when you'll do what your destined to do you'll get ,
More than you ever wished Lord to do.
And after listning to her ancient wisdom ,
My " Why me, changed to It's me life anthem .
All those emotional pain and childhood wounds ,
I finally learnt what I have to do.
I've cutted the the chord of victimization and guilt ,
and Accepted it as part of my dastan-e -zindagi .
This darkness have given a sacred spritual light to me ,
Which I can live and radiate to those who need. 🌻