I spent my years loving a poem that ended in ‘listen to the quiet and whisper, “thank you for stopping by”.’

Yet, you whirled in and out of my tempo in such haste,

It cluttered my thoughts only to form a feeble ‘Why?’.

A dreaded lock twists like an ivy in my chest

My haphazard thoughts, too stubborn to form words

Yet, I give it a try.

I have so many things to say that I don’t want to

I go number by the day, can’t figure out if I still want you.

Much so conceited that I’d rather lose you

Than lose you to someone else.

My sighs get louder by the hour

Time is taking a bit too much time, it’s unfair.

I have so many forbidden questions that won’t even make sense to raise.

Neither can I set them ablaze.

From ‘I have many plans except you’ to ‘I have no plans except you’,

Some plans failed

Some pattered down to unwanted puddles down the lane

Speaking of puddles, do you remember that unlit night in the rain?

Seven minutes of unleashed psyche played as we headed home…

It was intoxicatingly insane

I could recognize you anywhere in a crowd.

A pity I can’t escape of you that adorable laugh

Do you still laugh that sweet laugh?

You know, the part where the corners of your mouth curl up

And tint you a blush?

I guess you do

You probably do…

I hope you do.

Is this grief worth a vape?

No harm done, just an attempt to forget

Erase you just for one night, to relish in your false existence until the gray subsides.

Alas,

I’m too much of a coward to pretend being high when the low feels like rock bottom

We held on to a Koalemos past in trying times

And let go of the future like Pandora

Did we just not work enough, or were we never meant to work together?

I knew you and I loved you.

Yet it took us to stand strangers for me to write a memory of you

Maybe someday you’ll stumble upon it.

Maybe you’ll like it.

Maybe you're not even worth it…

‘R u?’