I don't know- Eshita Singh

I don't know what it means,

But from a young age, I was suppressed from

Wearing what I loved by all means.

I don't know what it means,

But I was taught to cook food of all types and means.

I don't know what it means,

But my brother was taught to catch his fantasies,

While nobody cared for my dreams.

I don't know what it means,

But my brother travelled all around the world,

While I was stuck within the four walls.

I don't know what it means,

But my brother was taught to be strong and brave,

And all sorts of outdoor games,

While I was told to be calm, elegant and gentle,

And learn the household chores by heart.

I don't know what it means,

But my brother's tears had value more than gold,

While my tears had no value, that's what I was told.

I don't know what it means

But while I was learning ABCs,

I always dreamt of what I would be;

A pilot, a teacher, a doctor, a chef, or a scientist just like Marie Curie,

And weave my own inspiring story.

But my Baba's words, "Just marry",

Dropped me into a hole, deeper than a black hole.

Today I am 20 and with strength and hope, I got a job without Baba's permission

But when I came home there was silence and silence,

And no conversation.

I asked Ma what was the issue, But she stood there like a statue.

Surprisingly, I was not surprised,

She was always silent each and every day

No matter how much I cried and whined.

Today, I understood why Ma was silent all these days

But now it's enough,

It's time for a change by breaking all the stereotypical gates,

And throw away the Handcuffs in which freedom was till now tough.

So with lots of hope and a smile,

I went to Baba, thinking he'd realize and agree ,

That I'm no longer a child,

And my dreams are not little like a seed;

I've been a grown-up for quite a while,

And my never-ending dream tree is ready to reach the moon.

But I guess these cloud-like thoughts will eventually vanish away,

So,I suddenly tried to walk away;

When with a giggle and a smile, for the first time ever in my life,

My Baba spoke up

" Listen, my daughter, go live your dreams

In this modern world, you're forever free".

And finally today I know what it means,

Today I know the worth of my tears and dreams.

I went from being a nowhere nobody,

To being a special somebody.